Theologians desire to understand God through logically studying the Bible and history. Logic is trapped in the matrix of your culture and experience. The Spirit can only be understood outside of our matrixes. The Bible was writen by those inspired by the Spirit to wake up or inspire others in the Spirit. It can only be understood outside of the matrix. We can not be in this world and be free of our matrix, but that is ok because it is part of God’s journey for us. The goal should be to make the matrix less predominant in our everyday life and to understand when you are communing with your spirit verses the matrix. Our mind and emotions are part of our personal matrix and it desires to take the place of the spiritual.
The move from Theology to spiritual understanding of the scriptures will take a Saul to Paul type experience. Most people are not as theological as Saul, so it may not need to be as drastic of a wakeup call. This may also be aided by others who have found the path. The quest for this experience starts by simply asking God for it. But realize that spiritual reaches does not mean a comfortable life, in fact you will have some real pain. It’s our mind and emotions that need to believe we are in control of hard times. Now you may say God is in control and if I go to Church and pray then God will bless me. But that puts you in the driver’s seat. Spiritual growth comes through pain and time with God through the spirit. It does not happen quickly nor does it happen in a linear progression. There will be times of high growth and times of what feels like no growth.
Spiritual Eyes
You find before you a very high wall that you must and will climb. The other side of this wall you will find the Spiritual Experience that changes everything. The things that torment you now you will find them to be the blessed Cross. You've read books on other countries before you visit, but when you arrived you found that you had not fully understood the books. The same and more is true for the bible and spiritual books. We can not look at them with the same eyes as the writer until we have shared in the Experience that turns the others into a mirage.
God's love for you does not change, just your ability to see it. The Lord is expressing His love for you in the realm of reality and this is partially reflected in the physical realm. This physical reflection if viewed from the perspective of the physical looks deceptive. The physical eyes call this torment. The spiritual eyes call this a blessing. So this gives you an extraordinary situation, the blessed torment is the blessed cross. This is how the torment and devastation will turn into a blessing.
I used to enjoy counseling and would often use the knowledge I learned to fix my own life. I had become quite good at understanding how the mind worked so that I could work out the problems in my life. I learned how to fix some of my problems that were not Christian, as I thought the bible directed. But that is all a lie of the old nature.
"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and takes up his cross daily and follows me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it." LUKE 9:23-24
He says you must deny yourself, not stop sinning. You must not try to fix (save) your life but rather set it aside (lose it). You can NOT deny or lose something that you are trying to fix. So we are free from sin and the torment of the world only when that part that is subject to torment is denied or lost. So whenever I'm stung by sin that part of me I must find and deny. The pain must not be justified with my time but set aside for God.
The fight is not against sin and Evil but with our desire to fight sin and evil. The tree that Adam and Eve ate of was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Before the apple Adam did not know of evil so he could not know of his evil ways. He found out later that the things he was doing were wrong, he had no clothing! God had only said one thing in the garden was bad and that was the tree of knowledge. Why only this tree and not the other things. What was the first effect the tree had on Adam? The first thing that Adam saw was his nakedness and he wanted to be covered. Adam had the need to do good and this lead to him hiding from God. Our old nature wishes to do good not our new. God knew Adam had eaten of the tree when he was to ashamed of his "sin" to spend time with God. Genesis 3:10-11
I have seen that God's love has always been with me. I have started to also realize that I have been in union with God. I thought I had to gain or earn this but have found this not to be true. I have instead found that I have been on a journey to open my spiritual eyes.
Would You join me on this journey?
God's love for you does not change, just your ability to see it. The Lord is expressing His love for you in the realm of reality and this is partially reflected in the physical realm. This physical reflection if viewed from the perspective of the physical looks deceptive. The physical eyes call this torment. The spiritual eyes call this a blessing. So this gives you an extraordinary situation, the blessed torment is the blessed cross. This is how the torment and devastation will turn into a blessing.
I used to enjoy counseling and would often use the knowledge I learned to fix my own life. I had become quite good at understanding how the mind worked so that I could work out the problems in my life. I learned how to fix some of my problems that were not Christian, as I thought the bible directed. But that is all a lie of the old nature.
"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and takes up his cross daily and follows me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it." LUKE 9:23-24
He says you must deny yourself, not stop sinning. You must not try to fix (save) your life but rather set it aside (lose it). You can NOT deny or lose something that you are trying to fix. So we are free from sin and the torment of the world only when that part that is subject to torment is denied or lost. So whenever I'm stung by sin that part of me I must find and deny. The pain must not be justified with my time but set aside for God.
The fight is not against sin and Evil but with our desire to fight sin and evil. The tree that Adam and Eve ate of was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Before the apple Adam did not know of evil so he could not know of his evil ways. He found out later that the things he was doing were wrong, he had no clothing! God had only said one thing in the garden was bad and that was the tree of knowledge. Why only this tree and not the other things. What was the first effect the tree had on Adam? The first thing that Adam saw was his nakedness and he wanted to be covered. Adam had the need to do good and this lead to him hiding from God. Our old nature wishes to do good not our new. God knew Adam had eaten of the tree when he was to ashamed of his "sin" to spend time with God. Genesis 3:10-11
I have seen that God's love has always been with me. I have started to also realize that I have been in union with God. I thought I had to gain or earn this but have found this not to be true. I have instead found that I have been on a journey to open my spiritual eyes.
Would You join me on this journey?
Search for Christ
I've been a man thirsty after the things of God. I was left thirsty and frustrated, with a feeling of hopelessness. I always fell short and was told that it was OK. "You just need to learn to live with it."
I started with a thirst for God's wisdom. I studied His Word and asked God to give me wisdom. I found great wisdom in Church, the Bible, and other books. But I found nothing over time that would fill the void.
I then went out to serve God. I became a Church-holic for Christ. I began to humbly and quietly start meeting the needs of God's saints. I found my service to be devoured by the saints, with little change to them or me over time.
I woke up one morning to find myself separated from God in deep pain. I could feel the knife of separation stuck deep inside me. I screamed out to God and man in a mad rage. I fought everyone because how could it be my fault after I had tried so hard for 6 years. Then I realized that all I needed to do is give up. I needed to ask God to help me twist the knife until I really understand what I had done. Then I gave all my rage to God to be replaced with a thirst to spend time with Him.
Oh Dear Lord,
I'm so alone, in a sea of sin. When I try to find refuge in church, I find myself standing alone in a sea of Christians, who have given up on a relationship with you for obedience to you. Your grace no longer is a reason for them to keep searching to know You deeper, but has become a reason for them never to give up on trying to obey You.
The times I feel close to You are cut short by the world around me. Then the fact that the more time I spend with you the more I feel out of place in this world even with "Christians," just ripped me apart. This pushes me to start avoiding You. I am not made to be alone nor am I made to be without You. But this is what I'm forced with and it's just short of hell on earth. I either try to be obedient through the grace of God with the many or I seek a deep relationship with Christ using the grace of God to keep anything from coming between us but stand alone in an icy sea of theology ("mind over Christ" what a way to live, no wonder we have so many Christian counselors). May You never let me stop seeking both You in others, fellowship, and You inside of me, the Holy Spirit.
I started with a thirst for God's wisdom. I studied His Word and asked God to give me wisdom. I found great wisdom in Church, the Bible, and other books. But I found nothing over time that would fill the void.
I then went out to serve God. I became a Church-holic for Christ. I began to humbly and quietly start meeting the needs of God's saints. I found my service to be devoured by the saints, with little change to them or me over time.
I woke up one morning to find myself separated from God in deep pain. I could feel the knife of separation stuck deep inside me. I screamed out to God and man in a mad rage. I fought everyone because how could it be my fault after I had tried so hard for 6 years. Then I realized that all I needed to do is give up. I needed to ask God to help me twist the knife until I really understand what I had done. Then I gave all my rage to God to be replaced with a thirst to spend time with Him.
Oh Dear Lord,
I'm so alone, in a sea of sin. When I try to find refuge in church, I find myself standing alone in a sea of Christians, who have given up on a relationship with you for obedience to you. Your grace no longer is a reason for them to keep searching to know You deeper, but has become a reason for them never to give up on trying to obey You.
The times I feel close to You are cut short by the world around me. Then the fact that the more time I spend with you the more I feel out of place in this world even with "Christians," just ripped me apart. This pushes me to start avoiding You. I am not made to be alone nor am I made to be without You. But this is what I'm forced with and it's just short of hell on earth. I either try to be obedient through the grace of God with the many or I seek a deep relationship with Christ using the grace of God to keep anything from coming between us but stand alone in an icy sea of theology ("mind over Christ" what a way to live, no wonder we have so many Christian counselors). May You never let me stop seeking both You in others, fellowship, and You inside of me, the Holy Spirit.
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